I love my children with all my heart

Well my son Nick last September started being nasty to me saying I was horrible. Up until then we had always spoken and been ok . He has cut me off. It’s horrible feeling to be cut off by your child . My daughter has as well since she left her husband. I moved to be near her and her husband, I thought how lovely at first in beautiful Shrewsbury , I found a church, choir, drummung , friend in wales , ramblers etc it was good , but there was always underlying differences and I was losing my sight fast and had panic attacks it was scary

I panicked and came back to Southend I wish had stayed and gone into The Coppice.

What a muddle .

So now

I sit in southchurch

Very blind

Being ignored by the two elder children

How horrible …. And they don’t bat an eyelid about it ….

Rob my younger son still speaks but it is very hurtful this situation

I contacted Dignity in dying today on Facebook

What point is there to life if you are ignored

And can’t see …

It feels awful

I sit here trying to overcome advanced glaucoma and being ignored by them . It’s not nice

I left their father, my brother said neighbours had heard him shouting at me and felt sorry… it’s an awful situation

And not invited to his wedding next month … how mean, my friends can’t believe how mean he is …. To his own mum, my dad would be be very upset and my mum … you think his fiancé would say something but I guess she just takes it all in … that generation are not like ours …

He loved me enough when he wanted some money to do his Law Degree

My eyes are terrible. Sight like pink mist .

My husband certainly did a number on us all… he is ok … remarried taken on her family Never paid maintenance….

The first seven years of a child’s life are the most important and influential as we know . Mine heard him swear bash doors roar in anger . I was scared and should have left him before I did

I’m sorry children . It was not what I wanted for any of us . I should have stayed in my Marital home and got the police to remove him to be honest

History

Behaviours now

Reflections

Where can I live as blind woman on her own away from this

Oh well

The Mckenzie family ….

Happy days children. It was lovely to know you once

I hope I see them again …

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Author: Rosy

I became interested in poetry and try to write about things from my heart that are associated with events in my life or events going on in the World at large or closer to home. I am a visual artist and still am to a certain extent having exhibited some of my work as a visually impaired artist using sponges to paint. I have lost most of my eyesight in recent years to advanced glaucoma and my vision is now very limited I am finding my creativity now evolving in writing poetry and hope to publish my own book of verse in the future. I have a blog page on Wordpress where I share my poetry, art, photography, thoughts and favourite quotes and prayers at https://rosypoems.com

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